Difficulty Sleeping....

I know i went missing for awhile.  I was busy with a few stuff.  Finally did my Maternity Photoshoot days ago.  Woah... all i can say is that it ain't easy being 8 months pregnant and doing shoots.  It's tiring! It's taxing!!! I needed help standing and sitting.  Not an easy job.  Got my hubs to do with me and we did a few series.  From couple casual to semi nude and artistic shots!!! Photos ain't ready yet.  Will post when ready.  Stay tune.

Well, in the very mean time, i'm left with 35 days to my delivery date.  I'm scared and i'm not so ready.  I'm paranoid and i just cannot imagine labor pain!!! I cannot imagine how it's like when the waterbag burst.  I cannot imagine labor pain (they say it's menstrual cramp being 999999 times magnify) i just couldn't imagine the whole process of delivering a baby and then deliver the placenta and worse part, get my vajayjay sewn!!! Then i'm as good as a virgin and mum warned me that sex is gonna hurt like a bloody virgin after birth.  All in all, i just cannot imagine.

Been getting very very uncomfortable and i can't sleep!!! Falling asleep is a difficult task and getting up to go to the loo to pee is another! I somehow want it over fast but yet am so afraid of labor. Arghhhhh... In anyway, i just fear the whole process okay.

Gotta go try sleep now... Good night!

PS: Tired!!!

Faster...

Me and my dear husband is kinda left with 42 days till our lil baby daughter meets us.  We will be having a "family" and not just "you and me" anymore.  Excited to meet our lil one yet at the same time i kinda feel a lil sad that it's no longer the 2 of us.  If you get what i mean, it's more or less like a "freedom" kinda thingy when it's just the 2 of us.  

Okay, so i'm the only one feeling this way cuz hubs can't wait to expand this family. He told me this 9 long months of wait is equivalent to 9 years and we're still counting down.  Each day is like a week to him.  He just can't wait to meet our "creation"  that he claimed is gonna look like him.  Lol...

Honestly, i can't wait to wake up "unpregnant" and light! I can't wait to not having to run to the toilet to pee every half an hour.  I can't wait to get back my appetite.  I can't wait for my hormones to go back to normal.  I can't wait to work out.  I can't wait to shake my bootie.  All in all i just can't wait to be my comfortable self once again.

It's the last leg.. and it's the most uncomfortable period where all preggies will tell you it's the worse and suffering part till the baby arrives.  If you ask me if i'm ready, i'll most probably tell you not.  Really! Of course i'm gonna take good care of my lil one, this you never have to worry... not that i don't want her.  Lol... But it probably just haven't got into me yet till i "see/meet" our lil daughter.  

Till then, i guess i'd most probably never understand the feeling of a mother.  The feeling of relieve upon seeing your own baby after a hard day of work.  I'm still not there yet.  So in the mean time, the only feeling that i feel is nothing fulfilling but "uncomfortable-ness" only! Seriously i can't imagine the labour pain that will be coming upon me in less than 43 days time!!! And i can tell you honestly that i'm f_*king SCARED!!!

We've gotten the crib ready.  We've prepared our lil baby's clothes and cloth nappies.  Yes, we'll be using the cloth nappies cuz it's the best!!! Of course not very convenient but lucky i have the maid to help me wash those nappies.  And am i breast feeding?! I really don't know! Erm... will breastfeed if i'm able to produce enough milk?! Yup that will be the way i guess.

Been having loose bowels lately and realize that it ain't food poisoning at all.  Went online to do some research and found out that most of the preggies will experience this before labour.  Maybe my time is near.  I haven't even pack my hospital bag yet! *Roll eyes*

Gonna go in for the ultrasound scan and check up this friday again.  Probably will pack my hospital bag after that.  Saturday i'm going in for a Maternity photoshoot.  I can't wait for this week to be over.  Oh did i mention that my appetite got worse?! *Sigh*

I believe my previous 8 months blog post hasn't been pleasant (okay, not as though i write the most interesting thing in the first place either, lol...) but bear with me for the last 43 days or so.  It's really gonna be over soon.

PS: The anxious, enthusiastic, excited father-to-be wants to go to Kiddy Palace the moment we wake up tomorrow!!! Sometimes i really wonder, is he the husband or am i the husband instead!!! The husband is 999999999 times more eager about the delivery than the pregnant woman herself!!! Lol.

Poisoned

I thought i've recovered from that annoying food poisoning.  The watery stool subsided so i stopped taking the charcoal. Anyway the charcoal has got only 2 tabs left. Thinking that i'm fine since there's no more pain in my tummy, i started my milk intake with half boiled eggs and cheese!!! Sorry i just have to!!! I've deprived my lil unborn baby inside of me for a few days without my prenatal vitamins and i went on a few days with poor appetite with low nutritional value.  I felt really guilty!

I really thought i was fine and recovered.  Alas... i woke up to extreme stomach pain!!! So bad that i shot outta my bed and rushed to the toilet.  And i no i didn't "poo" i "pee" with at the rear!!! Yes, i was literally excreting water from the arse!!! And that "feeling" damned was awful i tell you!!! You can never imagine how much water i let out! 

And there i sat for a full 30 minutes and no kidding!!! I washed my poor arse and went back to my room and wake the husband.  He looked totally stunned and i believe that he wasn't even awake yet just that his eyes were open for that few minutes.  I took charcoal and told him that i wasn't feeling too well.  The diarrhea caused me to be weak in the knees and i could literally see stars too.

Feeling extremely weak and feverish, i lay down on the bed and drifted off to sleep.  I can feel gas in my stomach and i swear i dare not even fart! I'm serious! Cuz i'm afraid that if i fart, it wouldn't be just smelly gas that comes out, it's gonna be water!!! Lol.

Anyway, the charcoal seemed to have worked wonders.  I didn't poo for today and yes i guess i'll really have to avoid dairy products for the new few days even if i feel all better already.  I can't risk it.  Anything may trigger labor.  I'm left with 49 days!

Our lil precious baby girl needs to stay in my tummy at least till the 37th weeks.  I'm currently 33 weeks.  Any time from 37 weeks is the crucial period as i may go into labor since baby is full term at 37 weeks.  Our lil one has been really active and she's been kicking me really hard.  We can't wait to see her...

PS: Burping stomach acid and it taste like f_*k!!!

Enthusiastic Husband

Woke up to extreme tummyache! Imagine serious food poisoning and gas.  I dragged myself and my excess baggage on me to the toilet and sat for the next 30 minutes in great pain! I can't help it but to imagine and think that labor is gonna be 999999999 times worse than this! My imagination ran wild in the cubicle.  I started to feel like vomitting.  And that shook me back to reality. 

Okay, i'm still sitting on the toilet seat in pain.  One moment i was forcing all the shit to come out the next i just feel so much like vomitting! This has gotta be food poisoning,  I thought it went away 2 days ago.  Alas it came back.  Damned let me tell you, food poisoning is already painful when i ain't pregnant but being pregnant makes tummyache so many time worse i tell you.

After bombarding the toilet, i limped back to my room and sat on the bed starting to feel worse.  I felt tired and was suddenly sensitive to daylight.  Any form of lights! I can't even stare into my Iphone without feeling bad.  I need to close my eyes.  I need to lie down.  I took Charcoal pills and decided to lie down and i just drifted back to sleep.  Feeling extremely weak.

I got up 2 hours later feeling slightly better,  Phew!!! But i couldn't really eat anything much today.  I stopped my prenatal vitamins for today as my tummy ain't taking anything well.  Anything will just give me upset stomach.  That bad! Sigh... I feel so guilty depriving my lil baby inside of me with nutrition.  But i really cannot take the risk to let this condition worsen.  At this last stage of pregnancy, anything can induce our baby to come out.  I wouldn't wanna take the risk.  She needs to stay in there till at least 37 weeks at least.  I'm currently 32 weeks exactly.

My dear husband was freaking excited about the baby's cot and kept on pestering me to allow him to assemble them and get it into our room.  He told me by hook or by crook he's gonna get it done by tonight.  He was thinking about it the whole day! Lol.  Anxious Daddy to be.  He's so cute and it's so amusing to watch his enthusiastic expression.  Priceless!!!

He didn't even had dinner and was so happy up till now at 1:12am he's still not hungry!!! The photos above was taken at about 9:45 pm!!! Hahaha.  He was yakking and yakking away about the decorations and stuff.  Now this man of mine finally sat down quietly beside me watching some thai reality show.  Peace quiet at last!

My mum and me couldn't stand him.  Lol.  He's super enthusiastic and engrossed with the baby's stuff.  We were laughing at his anxiousness.  Cute!!! I'm the one who has the baby inside of me for the past 8 months but he's the one feeling more excited that i do.  How ironic.  My mum told me he's gonna love his children so much!!! Lol...

 

 Got our Ultrasound scan and check up later at 2:30 pm.  Today we're gonna have the Growth Scan to determine if i'm able to go for natural delivery or the C Section.  Gonna do another lab test.  Woah, my OB/Gynae is so detail and thorough!!! Most of my friends who went to others doesn't need to go through so many test.  Good thing is all my results were good.  Lucky me.

Mum said it's good to go through all those test so that you can be sure that you and the baby is safe.  There's no harm going through all these.  Extra test means extra cash.  Having a baby is sure expensive!  I'm gonna deliver at Mount Alvernia Hospital and we were invited for a hospital tour.  We still haven't found the time to go and honestly i actually didn't wanna go.  Phobia can!

Shall stop here today.  Good night folks.

PS: 54 days and counting down...

9 More Weeks!!!

I had a really good sleep last night and damned it does feels good!!! And so we're into Day 3 of Chinese New Year!!! Now that's fast! Why?! Cuz it's nearing my due date.  I have 58 more days to go and the fear is creeping nearer and nearer.

I'm currently 31 weeks and 7 days pregnant. Almost 8 months pregnant?! Still no water retention yet and the weight increase is not much.  More or less just growing at the belly.  Keeping my fingers cross, there's still no stretchmarks to be seen.  My mum don't have them and neither did my sis.  Hopefully i won't get them too!!! =) But i have painful feet!!! At a specific spot!!! I can't seem to stand for long and i have sore lower back too. 

My dear sweet husband massaged my painful feet for me.  He's so sweet!!!

We are expecting a really active baby that kicks me like crazy.  Hubby was telling me just nights ago that our lil baby "kicked" him.  I was sound asleep and was hugging my hubby, then lil baby was active while i was asleep and kicked really hard.  So hard that he could literally "feel" it.  Haha, he was so amazed and was so inquisitive the next morning.  Bombarded me with loads of questions.  Lol!!!

The below are my updates on my baby bump at 31 weeks 5 days.  Damned are them uncomfortable!!!

See how much my baby bump has grown...

It's a baby girl inside!!!

Now you have a clearer picture.

Gonna go for the once every 2 weeks ultrasound scan and check up in 2 days time.  Woah, that's fast!!! During the next visit, i've gotta go for "Growth Scan" and another Lab test to determine if i'm going for natural delivery or the C section.  Being pregnant in Singapore is so costly!!!

PS: Oh God, i'm so afraid of labor!!! How???!!

Happy Lunar New Year!!!

Happy Lunar New Year!!! I had a super busy week previously and was really busy till the New Year Eve even!!! Yes!!! Me and my hubby are so worn out up till today cuz we've been up really early and been sleeping late.  Today is the first day of Lunar New Year and we were expected to wake up early to get ready and go visiting.  We did.  So i guess we can finally "rest" after tonight. Yay!!! 

This Lunar New Year was welcomed by lots of rain.  It was raining cats and dogs into the night during eve of Lunar New Year.  It was raining this afternoon too.  This is suppose to be the "Water Dragon" Year so i guess it's a good omen to be raining huh?! Lol.  

Feeling so tired at this moment, i won't be here for long i guess.  I am really feeling the "stress" on my belly.  It's getting bigger and bigger, day after day.  The strain on my feet and back is killing me.  Not forgetting my bladder! Arh... At least i know that i can rest from now till my estimated delivery date i'm more than happy.

Didn't have much appetite today.  I woke up at 5 am with intense stomach pain and realize that i am down with food poisoning! I wonder what i ate.  Took charcoal pill and the pain subside a little.  Didn't bombard the toilet ever since.  

Damned!!! I can't even concentrate typing now.  Gotta go... will be back really soon.  I promise.

PS Think hubs caught food poisoning too... poor thing.

Just another day

I managed to wake up 2 hours earlier today to go work on my dressmaking skills.  Haha.  It was a long and busy day.  Raining on and off.  The amazing thing is i wasn't sleepy this whole day.  Not sleepy now too.  So hyper.  Just ate dinner.  Had beef and potatoes.  Now i'm so full i feel like vomitting!

This morning my dear husband let out a loud shriek and that woke me up!!! He was talking to my tummy and i was like -_-"" Lol, how weird.  Too anxious to see his lil baby daughter, he can't wait.  So i asked him what's up with the shrieking... He looked like an excited 5 year old lil boy exclaiming,"Darling, your stomach is so big today!" And i looked down and got a shocked! Indeed!!! It grew so big overnight! You may probably think that we are bullshitting but just ask a mother and she'll tell you such things does happen overnight.  We just "pop" really!

I look like a darn penguin and am starting to have difficulties walking.  Pain in my bladder every day and especially night.  Nope not UTI for sure.  My lil rascal is "slamming" herself on my bladder! My monthly ultrasound scan and check up has shortened to twice a month check ups.  So that means i'll be going in to see the OB/Gynae once every 2 weeks.  The next one will be on the 13th. =)

We can't wait for our lil baby to be out.  I don't know if we'll make good parents but imma teach my kid/kids in future some really important things.  They MUST follow regardless of whatever... Imma list out

1. Respect 

- They must address the elderly/senior

2. Manners

- You better be greeting the grandmother/father/uncles/aunties.  Not depending on her/his mood.  I'm sure you see kids nowadays being so rude and not greeting their own family members and the parents got the cheeks to laugh it off by saying,"Ohh, he/she's in a bad mood."

3. Sharing

- Sharing of her/his toys with siblings/cousins other kids.

Wow, it's 2:20 am and i need to wake up early to learn more skills for dressmaking.  The dear sweet husband is waiting for some cuddle... Need to go... Good night. =)

PS: Dear you...One of the most painful things in life is losing yourself in the process of loving someone too much, and forgetting that you are special too.  I seriously think that you should really sit down and ask yourself when was the last time someone told you that they loved you just the way you are, and that what you think and how you feel matters?  When was the last time someone told you that you did a good job, or took you to some place, simply because they know you feel happy when you’re there?  When was the last time that ‘someone’ was YOU?! You are you after all and you decide your future.  In anyway i really do hope you are happy.

Dressmaking

Rule number 1: Never attempt to be a smart aleck and down plenty of water 2 hours before bedtime!!! I got it real bad last night!!! Didn't manage to sleep a wink till 9am in the morning and woke up at 2pm! I dragged myself off the bed!!! Lil baby's been "slamming" herself on my bladder starting from last night!

It is painful and i keep on feeling the urge to go pee.  The feeling is somewhat like a replica of Urinary tract infection but it's not.  I just hate that feeling.  Just imagine you having a full bladder and someone keep on "punching" on your bladder.  How do you feel? Yes, that's the same feeling!

I'm going in Dressmaking lately.  Learning how to make dresses and alterations.  Will be venturing into this business at the same time coming May.  I think i found "love" in it.  It's relaxing and it trains your patience too.  And just like customizing mobile phone covers, whenever i complete a job, i felt the sense of achievement. 

Although i'm not an expert yet but i've accomplished a few "assignments" and had satisfied customers! =) Haha.  I'm trying to wake up earlier to go master more skills.  I'm not trying to find excuses for myself but i find myself having great difficulties getting up as i need to pee every 30 minutes throughout the night lately.  I only manage to sleep at 9am everyday.  I wonder why.  Think that it's rather common among preggers.

Ooh... i have good news!!! I am actually feeling hungry...like finally!!! =) Yay!!! Ever since i got pregnant, i've lost my appetite.  I don't eat more than usual and it's so sad when i see people enjoying food but i cannot.  Torturing.  

Been getting hunger pangs in the middle of the night.  Gonna stock up the fridge tomorrow.  I totally forgot to do so today.  Was busy with dressmaking! With pregnancy brain, i really do hope that i can remember to go tomorrow.  Let's monitor another night to see if the hunger pangs still comes.  Keeping my fingers cross, i hope it does. =) I'm such a glutton.

PS: Sometimes you just have to live not caring what some people may think of you, shake off the drama, and prove to YOURSELF that you’re better than they think you are.

Night Safari + Singapore Flyer

When my brother was back from Australia for holiday, we had a good time at Night Safari and Singapore Flyer.  Our virgin trip to both!!!

28 weeks pregnant.

We didn't expect that our Night Safari to be so crowded! We got a shocked!!! My brother's good wife Jasmine was so thoughtful and told us to go grab some bite and leave the queuing of tickets to her.  Speechless.  She's just so awesome.  Check out the crowd!

And we settled for some burgers.

As you know "Night" Safari is in the night and we can't capture much photos too.

It's a shame we missed the animal show.  But we did had a good time though... We went to Singapore Flyer too!!!

This photo was taken from hubby's Iphone

Check out what this lovely couple is doing...

Sincerely appreciate what my sister-in-law did for us.  She's so sweet to pay for our tickets.  That's so nice of her.

Ohh, by the way it's past twelve already right?! It's officially the 7th of January and it's my brother Ryan's birthday!!! He's no longer here in Singapore and went back to Australia already.  But i am sure he will be well taken care of by his good thoughtful wifey! =)

Have the happiest birthday... Have a blast!!! Wishes from Singapore...

PS: I need to pee...